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“Holding out the long note”

I awoke to Paris on fire, at gunpoint, held hostage,
from a mid-afternoon sleepwalking slumber of menial tasks
as a wage war zombie soldier on the other side of the world.

This unholy terror stretching far and wide
in my lifetime, as far back as I can remember,
and since the beginning of time.

We come from chaos in the cosmos or between the lines
of ancient text, scattered, smothered, and covered
in the blood of our ancestors
and those they’ve crucified.

And the eagles set their watches, buy their yachts,
twiddle their thumbs,
pop corks and pills and incarcerate entire generations
for slapping their turned cheeks,
or shoot them in the back out of instinct,
forgetting there are cameras in everything.

We’ve armed the world, though our gods
play us like Rock ‘Em Sock ‘Em Robots,
bringing time bomb knives to gunfights with the wires crossed.
Too stubborn to admit when we’re wrong
or how the west was really won,
with promises laced with smallpox.

We are machines inside a machine building machines with blinders on,
dashing through the desert on a warhorse broken sleigh
with the pilot in the back of a limo thousands of miles away
with tinted windows,
lying all the way.

And yet, beneath the uniforms, behind the skin,
our insides all look the same.
You see it when we blow up
or rot in unmarked graves.

But we’ve outgrown the core and let our flags define us,
borders isolate us, and become islands in a sea of fear.
Our captains have capsized our lifeboats and assured us
we’re surrounded by sharks,
that it doesn’t matter if we can’t see two inches below the surface,
we need to hurl spears and torpedoes
and give it all we’ve got,
and worry about forgiveness if the time comes.

And soon the oceans, like our holidays, will be cloudy with red smoke.
Seagulls will soar through hours of silence,
lifeguards will mope home.

We are why we can’t have anything nice.
Building the future like a Jenga tower
with kerchiefs over our eyes and booze in our veins.
Toddlers with vocabularies and something to say.
Armchair evangelists confusing satire for news and the rumble of passing
trains for record-setting earthquakes.
Convinced we can’t change the world with our words
until those words move boulders, knock down walls, build bombs.

Rock ‘n’ roll won’t save the soulless.
Protest songs won’t lie down on live grenades for us.
They’re warm blankets on cold nights, but not long enough
to reach our feet and crawling with lice.

So what do we do? We pray. And they pray.
A choir of beggars turning the sky black for answers
’til we’re all blue in the face.

A beautiful bruised world,
eyes tight,
exhausting its last breath holding out the long note,
limping on its last leg into the unknown.

“It’s all part of my rock ‘n’ roll fantasy”

tired drives through thunderstorms on slick
and narrow roads.
van spinning out on wet leaves, rolling backwards
down a mountain driveway at 4 AM,
heavy with gear, guilt, dreams, fear,
and lack of sleep.

from temporary home to temporary home,
couch to couch,
floor to floor,
doing everything at convenience stores
from sea to shining sea.

pining for things you shouldn’t miss,
don’t deserve to miss,
while people age around you and
bright-eyed hope turns to bleary-eyed desperation.

hundreds of miles away,
she’s too drunk to text me back.

sitting in a chair I’ll sleep on
in a house that isn’t mine,
quiet enough to hear myself from fifteen years ago
tell my mom things like,
“If I never try, how will I ever know?”

now we call our kids to say goodnight
from other kids’ empty beds
in the homes of two-weekends-a-month fathers we call friends.

and you don’t want to be the last to fall asleep
’cause that’s when the silence sneaks in,
broken by the sound of you fifteen years from now
screaming in your head,
“What the fuck are you thinking?
Who lives like that?
By the time you hear this, you’ll be dead.”

Perfect Sleeping Weather, available now. More on the horizon.

I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting this blog since March. Been fairly busy since then with two part-time jobs, occasional touring, and finally publishing Perfect Sleeping Weather.

I think my last post mentioned this, but it ended up being 93 poems written from 1998 to 2014, primarily about moving, living, leaving, traveling, and death; though there’s also a piece for Robin Williams (and comedians as a whole), as well as references to John Cusack, Van Halen, The Price is Right, and Fleetwood Mac.

It was a challenge putting it together and poring over it a dozen or so times to make sure it was a collection I was proud of and will hopefully still be proud of, or at least not ashamed of, 10 years down the line.

Unexpectedly, working on this has inspired me to write in a poetry type format again and I’m already 12 or so deep into what might become a follow-up. Who knows. One might be enough.

If you stumbled upon this blog and made it this far, thanks for reading. If you’d like to preview or purchase Perfect Sleeping Weather, you can do that here.

Thanks again.
Larry

Perfect Sleeping Weather, coming April 2015

Before I started trying my hand at screenplays and jokes, not too long after I started playing the drums, I wrote poems and lyrics. I hung around a lot of artsy kids in high school — writers, painters, musicians — and was particularly inspired by my friend Jonathan Baity, who, to this day, I’m convinced is one of the best poets I’ve ever read.

Anyway, releasing a collection of poetry has always been a bucket list sort of thing of mine, and I actually tried to do it back in the day, printing books at Kinkos, and it was an abomination. So, in 2014, I decided to finally try to do it right.

Perfect Sleeping Weather is a collection of poems written from around 1998 to 2014. Some are about those high school friends, some are about growing up restless in a small town, some are the mad late-night ramblings of a drunk who thinks too much.

A friend of mine, years ago, once told me, “All of your writing sounds like a sigh.”

I’ll take it.

I wanted to release the book in the fall or winter, ’cause it feels like a fall or winter book. But that didn’t happen, so I’ll release it in April, in conjunction with National Poetry Month.

From now until April 1st, I’ll be taking pre-orders, which include:
1. an autographed copy of Perfect Sleeping Weather.
2. handwritten and signed lyrics to “A Better November,” a song I wrote for Holidaysburg, a former band I was in and the title track of our one and only record.

Pre-orders will be slightly more expensive ($30), but include shipping to anywhere in the world and you get the little bonus lyrics. Click the link below to pre-order.

https://shop.trycelery.com/page/perfectsleepingweather

Thanks for taking the time to read all this and for supporting anything I’ve ever been a part of.

xoxo,
Larry